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IM MISSING MY CHRISTMAS

madsy-0320 — Tue, 16 Dec 2008 14:38:27 +0000

Im in an entirely different state of my life. Out of home and into a place that is totally new to me. I have never imagine these things so soon, they are mere dreams that came into reality. So far, I can feel sadness.. Sadness within me that I am missing alot of things. I dont have the usual things Ive done before. I dont have my family with me. I miss my mom so much. Lon as well. I miss Dad, I know he feels the same, Not the same old Christmas I have before.No carols, no “simbang ganingaldo” no comlec, no beautiful choir voices, no christmas goodies, no 168, no”inaanak” to give christmas presents, though they may pass by our home but they cant bless to “Ninang Mads” because she’s here, so far away.. Away that she’s missing alot of stuffs she wished she have this time of the year. I miss my PINDERBLUS..(Cehz, Jack, Kish, Bessy, Foch, TinTel) pinkies, its not the same anymore.. no giggling time to spend with, im missin ur paranoia, the “no-txt” policy that ends up rushing things. I missed cooking a special dish for all of you, and the giftgiving for sure.. Though at times we seldom give gift, but still i miss those simple letters we receive. Tel maybe near, but still far, she’s busy with her life and career..We understand.. I miss you alot pinkies, the endless story of foch, the giggles and long stories we usually bring up. I miss my CHURCH FRIENDS( Jener, Raymond, Gel, Badong,Marlon,Bob,RJ,Allain, Ate Jack, Renzo,Koya Ricky, Ate Tina, Kat, April, Rachel,Rizelle,Monina, MY COMLEC girls, my KNIGHTS, HIMIG SANTA CRUZ, BAYUNG SUNIS,and every org im attached to) I miss serving.. I miss reading in the mass.. I missed your SPORTSFEST, Im not there for you guys, I cant be your emcee, because Im too far, I wasnt able to organize things as I should. I’ll definetly miss the party and the fun, I miss GEL and the whole bunch of stories, I miss joking with Among Eric, the “before the mass scenarios” and joke times. I miss soliciting for the event and talking to people in the higher ups. Im missing all of you guys.. I really do.. my ASTIGERZ(Ken, Auds, Tel, Jel, Mitz, Shaks, Nald, Ling, Chi) Jaq and I would gladly reminise on those funny moments we had.. Magic 4? where are you? Not complete anymore.. No house party anymore?Just at SM? too bad I wasnt there to cook for you. Soon we will all see you. My AUFMC FRIENDS( Pot, kuya Fedz, Kuya Marc, Kuya Hans,Bry, Mami Rose, Ate Jovs, Lovely, ate myra ate my, ate jho, ate didith, ate Mary and all other staffs) I miss the duty(this includes toxic parts and funny moments, the order and delivery I miss didis,yellowcab,aneths and Jolibee!!!!), the party and all of you.. Though most of the staffs are also gone, and by now experiencing the same feeling. I really really miss my family.. my cousins and my niece and nephews(Jopay Amvic, Royti,Neyney, Ting2,Koi2,Angie,Amay,Cecile,Allan, jay, Dan2, Bing2, CC, mama ging, tatang david, Nanay and my tatang Boy. Though I talk to them more often, it’s really different spending time with them. I miss you all..You’re baby is far.. Mami, I miss your foods (dng suman,bobotu,asadu,nilaga,kalame,..amis ku na ing mamalut regalu.). Dars, minis dka..sopis ku kc.. Vic2 and Reuben.. I miss having you guys(ala kung ayustus keni) Im missing my room sooooo much.. Do I still have my pile of bags and shoes? who stays in my room? I miss driving BUMBLE BEE and OPTIMUS PRIME. MA, i really miss you and Koya.. I really do…..

I guess Im really missing my Christmas badly =(

my opinion

madsy-0320 — Fri, 19 Sep 2008 16:26:49 +0000

that was merely my opinion..if others happened to react about it..that is their choice.. I also have mine..perhaps..probably..

How’s my life

madsy-0320 — Sat, 16 Jun 2007 13:40:26 +0000

How’s my life after the board exam? Damn..it makes me sick… Going back to the life I had in Manila, It was just amazing that I found things which are uncommon.. presence of frnds in times of need is what i really care about.. Three weeks of hardships and preparations for the exam took me alot of things to realize.. It was in that simple room of the hotel that binded us friends together.. It felt like a real home..time to eat, time to giggle, time to play, time to work, time to read, time to make kilig(one big happy Family).. and as always time to kneel down and pray.. those were the moments which made the room a home.. It was then we realize that we were gettin our own strength from each other..It is just amazing that everyone will do a lil’ favor for a friend which they want to see happy.. I was touched with evry single idea that crosses their minds.. happy moments are to cherish each time you remember.. but it doesnt end there.. there’s a long way to go in which we will be bonded again.. Luv u my 2006A roomates…

Now, hows my life? same old mads… waitin for the results.. Having a lot of faith about it.. God’s Plan perhaps…

dont know

madsy-0320 — Fri, 13 Apr 2007 00:42:01 +0000

i dont know why i keep on holding on with the past.. I guess it’s still there and never been out. Some people hold on to me and dont want to let go, just the same… i dont want to let go too.. atleast we dont hurt people alot when we say it straight to them about what we feel but it is more painful not to say something what we want to say.. reality bites, moving on for others is easy but not with me… I dont know why im writing this blog.. for no reason at all.. just want to write what i feel.

Am I a LeaDer?!

madsy-0320 — Sun, 14 Jan 2007 03:11:13 +0000

"it is indeed a nice experience when people appreciate you for what you do.." recently, we just had our retreat..I was not really excited nor too prepared for it.. as a requirement, i should come.. beautiful experiences were delivered.. funny lines, quotable quotes, pretty good songs, moments of silence and tears and moments of prayer… and of course, the sumptuous meals and siestas.. though it gave me more tears.. i just realized lots of things.. things within me that I should be thankful.. Am I really a leader?! I don’t think so… that’s always set in me… but as they gave me their own view of what I am… they think I am responsible.. but im not.. Yes, I am a leader but for certain reasons bounded by realizations, im not.. I just know how to handle things..Everyone has the responsibility, but they just dont manage to be responsible… I am afraid of things that are set fort to be done… that’s why i just manage things as I could… Thesis leader? naAAAhh.. im not leading the group because I wanted to, but who would have the courage to lead if it wasnt me?? Youth Celebration and Commentator-Lectors Guild Chairman?.. they have vested me the power to lead the youth in the right path because they saw that I can lead people… now, Am I a Leader? NO, I am of service…

God’s Plan

madsy-0320 — Tue, 19 Dec 2006 11:46:35 +0000

Who would have thought a simple parish immersion could bring you even closer to God? who would have thought with your fine and simple gesture you could read aloud God’s word? who would have thought that you innermost self could attract people out of their generosity? I myself did it.. i am a part of the commentator-lectors guild of our parish for almost 5 years now… And I just love doing it.. not only for myself… Recently we held the first parish youth month, it is a four-week event.. And im currently the chairman of the committee.. it turned out to be extravagant i may say.. we were able to gather all the youth in our parish, we were more than hundreds.. Despite my busy schedules, I still did my part as chairman and a youth as well. The games and challenges brought us closer to each other building camaraderie and friendship among and each members of different organizations. as Father Sol would say.. "we have built our legacy". and I may say this is so true, because we never expected the response of the youth, They all enjoyed and would want another one. the friendship built with the committee grew even more stronger as we were again tasked for the coming Christmas party in our Organization and the coming of the Virgin Mary..I just hope it will turn out to be astonishing again. We have stand out among the rest.
Currently, I was again voted as the chairman of our guild, though it entails a lot of responsibility, I would, with open arms embrace the responsibility whole-heartedly. I know even im in the peak of the review for the board exam, my subordinates will continue what should be done for the betterment of the guild.
Nine mornings are almost in the middle..even if I have to wake up early, Im still serving even there’s a lot of work to do.. I am very much happy for what I have and what I am doing now. No one could ever buy those happiness… Life never gets tough if God is with you.. As my Pinderblus Friends would always say.. "God’s Plan"